Saturday, December 12, 2009
GBFF thanks loads for pushing me on. Thanks to everyone like jacq,angel, zach, sarah, beanie, jojo n all who's been pushing and pushing me and grabbing me when im slipping and backing me up when i dont haf the strength anymore. You guys mean so much to me and i appreciate it lots. I guess this is it. Period.
The lecture/talk/heart-to-heart that woke me up or at least is in the process of waking me up:
JSTNCH says:
you still upset ah
lol
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
yeah la
u tink wad
very easy to just say can forget n move on then can meh
JSTNCH says:
haha!
why cannot
if not when you wanna be unhappy until
makes more sense to dont care right (:
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
yes i know
but tell me the secret to instant not caring
coz thoughts will stll keep playing in my head no matter how much i try to suppress them
JSTNCH says:
ERM
be happy for them move on dont think luh
or rather accept it that you cannot do anything abt it what
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
yeah i know
acceptance mode still in progress
once i reach 100% i wud haf reached one level higher up in the enlightenment ladder
JSTNCH says:
oh welll
you have to accept it
no choice what
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
yuppp
JSTNCH says:
THEN JUST CHILL MAN
theres really nothing you can do baby! find love again then
whats so difficult
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
find love again
JSTNCH says:
not difficult luh
chill (:
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
okayy
JSTNCH says:
ahahahahah
actually quite hard ah here
but nvm luh
AIYAH dont so distracted la
good for you
you're safe among friends
only thing i miss from a relationship after along time is sex
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
haha omg u actually making me laugh
JSTNCH says:
=/
then what u think i blurting crap ah
cheering u up can
LOL
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
i miss the emotional n physical comfort
not sex justin
JSTNCH says:
ahahahah i miss sex
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
ahhh shaddap i haven HAD IT
JSTNCH says:
hahahahaha
ok ok
ure a girly what
teeheeehe
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
wads a girly?
-.-
JSTNCH says:
hahahahahaahahahahahah
virgingirl
ur case
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
okay
JSTNCH says:
chill luh.. (:
its really not worth it getting all tripped over someone who has moved on.. or someone who think he is ready to move on.. idk whatever he thinks but its much better also. managing urself is alr tough enough, imagine a rln to tie things tgt also.. it will be even worse or even if it is good once it gets bad its worse than worse
not everyone gets to experience overseas studying or living
treasure it cos ur friends are ur greatest assets and relationships are things that will make you grow apart from ur friends
esp overseas
look at leanne and jason
classic example
not tht she close to you but she was to me
and i dont even talk to her at all
at the end of the day you are still young my dear and road ahead is long.
girls no needa worry cannot find partner one
cos guys think with lanjiao one
gt hole can alr
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
HAHAHA
WTF JUSTIN
JSTNCH says:
the best thing to do is make the best of your time here..
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
u sounded so nice n awesome till the lanjiao part
JSTNCH says:
instead of fretting over all these nonsense that has long been over or smth like tht
eh but tht was the part tht cracked u ok
HEHE
im serious.. who has been keeping you "alive" and all
think about it.. its ur friends
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
yeaaaaaah
JSTNCH says:
its either you get into a rln and lose ur friends then when you really need them back theres like so much catching up to do
or either you get into a rln with a friend in the grp then if say anything horrible happens
a) either it becomes awkward for all
b) you find urself stuck cos you feel obliged
this is a time where you can flirt ard go ahead.. 1 wk flings MAXIMUM
nothing more no attachments
best case
afterall youre not at home or where you want home to be or prolly havent thought things out yet what
so why think about these stuff which has so many factors to play
of course the imaginery place is so lovely so beautiful
but you have to snap back to reality
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
sigh u are right as usual
JSTNCH says:
its a whole different thing altogether
its not abt me being right or what la silly
i mean these kinda stuff are really objective what
but it kinda sucks to see u upset also ma
furthermore you're beingupset over something i think is so crap
that if crap could be eaten
the crap that crap crapped out would be that
its just something that happened and yes it might be heart wrenching but i think you're taking it out too hard on urself
you are missing what the ppl ard you are doing at this point of time
afterall
honestly what will be will be
ok my dear? (:
things will be fine seriously
just a matter of time..
so just be patient see what the universe has installed for you
rather than lamenting on what the universe did to you
haha
JSTNCH says:
you should be waiting for him to be with someone else
best mark to tell u ok fine move on
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
i guess so
JSTNCH says:
really what its so much better than
he havent move on
u also
you know he havent move on but neither of you can do anything
thats like dying to fuck and the girl is all naked but you cant erect
tht feeling is way worse can
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
okok
too descriptive
JSTNCH says:
LOL
i cant think of a proper comparison
cept tht
HAH
=X
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
okayyy
u r da bomb
friends are the bomb
JSTNCH says:
(:
CAN HAVE MAX 1 WEEK FLINGS
hahahahaahah
but fck rships
(:
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
ok listen to u
JSTNCH says
GOOD GIRLY
HAHAHAHAHAAHH
-deNISE- Can You Meet Me Halfway? says:
yes im a girly n proud to be one :D
JSTNCH says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
IM PROUD OF YOU TOO (:
kay. fine. listen to u kay. shall do it that way for now.
SEE YOU SOON LOVES 3 more days <3
11:08 AM
Yhot legs and water beds
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
This one right here is for all the ladies
Ladies who want to take it back
Ive been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to end, we can start again
Theres nothing left to say
Dont waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If its alright with you then its alright with me
Baby lets take this time lets make new memories
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Lets bring it back (Bring it back!)
Lets bring it back (Bring it back!)
Lets bring it back (Bring it back!)
Lets bring it back (Bring it back!)
Lets bring it back
So long since youve been missing
Its good to see you again
How you how you doing
And how about we dont let this happen again
Theres nothing left to say
Emo screamo songs playing on n on in my head in my head. grrrrrrrrrr.
And with heart shaped bruises and late nite kisses. Anyone knows where i can get a stabilizer shot? I think im badly in need of one :(
9:18 PM
Yhot legs and water beds
Sunday, December 06, 2009
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed
I didnt know maths could be so sweet and romantic. I always hated it, but wow.
~chun rak koon nan leu
8:45 PM
Yhot legs and water beds
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Looking at the pictures and messages,They bring back the memories
of us
But now
every bone inside me has been shaken
N my heart still lies wide open
Love's like jumping out an airplane,
Riding a tidal wave, on an ocean of emotion
Of which I always tend to take for granted, dont I?
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow'." -took from Jacq's blog.
Its so true huh jacq. But what if then it becomes like what i learned in psych? Learned helplessness, whre i keep trying again and again and failing hopelessly. then how? how now brown cow? can u please moo some advice to me?
Im actually crying while watching Angus, thongs n perfect snogging. haha. omg. did anybody else cry or am i just really losing it?! i really need to stop this.
7:24 PM
Yhot legs and water beds
Friday, December 04, 2009
I've always loved the song Wadcha Say, but i didnt really pay attention to the lyrics till today. While relistening to it for the 100+th time And then i realised that subconsciously why i like it so much was coz of the lyrics. My subconscious mind had already processed it, just that my myelin sheath and all aint working dat fast threfore it only dawned upon me right now, the true reason why i like it so much.
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself
Boy, I was caught up in my lust (tattoo)
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should have treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you were meant to be together
I really need you in my life
Cause things ain't right
These are basically the main parts of the song that i can really relate to right now. Its like it was so made for me and was meant to be a wake up call. But the call came too late, or more accurately, i woke up too late if u get what i mean. And in life, there's no such thing as a snooze button to prolong stuff, whatever it is. U have to face the music, n yeah im facing it right now. Staring it right in the face, with tears streaming down my face. Not gonna back down cause I know what i did was wrong, so im taking what i deserve blow by blow. Cause there aint no other way around the problem, is there? I asked for it, and now im reaping what i sowed. The bitter fruit that'll always come a-haunting.
9:59 PM
Yhot legs and water beds
And if ever i get the chance to tell u how much i love u again, i would grab it and never let it go... But I think I already blew it since the plan backfired real gd, over and gone.To me,
Love was when I loved you
The one true time I hold to
In my memory, we'll
always go on like i always thought we'll do.
Because You were the one who stood at the beginning with me,
And at the end, i wanna be standing at the beginning with u.
10:50 AM
Yhot legs and water beds
Thursday, December 03, 2009
I've been waiting.... for a sign or something, but nothing. So if im really too late, then i guess its goodbye. Thats the only thing that will resonate and last since the connection that was supposed to be forever ended up in never. Therefore,GDBYE AND NO MORE:
-169 bus rides
-hand holding open n secret
-cinema going whre we dun even watch the shows
-silent kisses
-stolen hugs
-secret meetings
-couple presents/gifts
-long sweet lovey msges
-snatches of phone convos
-picture taking
-neoprint making
-the shared secrets and things
-the sweet confessions
-and everything else that was to come or shud have been
I guess its time.
1:20 AM
INTRO
L is for the way u LOOK at me
O is for the ONLY one I see
V is VERY VERY extraordinary
E is EVEN more than anyone that you can adore
Like a perfect scene
From a movie screen
We're a dream come true
Suited perfectly
For eternity
Me and you
Everyday, I need you even more
And the night time too
There's no way I could ever let you go
Even if I wanted to
ME!
M-S-M
I(II)-N-A-T-M
Shopaholic
Piercings<3
Tattoos<3
*Might* fall into the materialist category
LOVES
Leather, Rosegold, Gold, Silver<3<3<3
Accessories Addict<3
Spiky, studded, sparkly goods
Bagaholic
Watch Collector
I live to eat<3
THE WANTS
To secure a stable job in the near future
<3
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